Jaedyn

Quick update.....

I love it here....Miz seems to like it as well. I'm sitting on my couch right now, with the sliding glass doors open with a cool breeze coming through it...looking at the moon... Who could ask for much more. Lex is getting big and our Ikea furniture is being delivered tomorrow...finally a bed. Well I must go find room for all those boxes...I'll be busy putting lots of furniture together tomorrow. Only things we have left to get is a new recliner for miz, a coffee table for the living room and a tv stand for miz's game room. I'm still debating if I'm going to go see Warrant tonight.....
Jaedyn

Vegas Bound

Well in 11 days...I will be on my way to Vegas with Lex and Moab. Ramiz will be joining me in October....I'm excited to start our lives over in a new place...I have so much to do...the moving van is coming on Monday...well I drove in from Florida this morning and I'm tired....I'm going to sleep for a few hours.
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Jaedyn

Breaking Heart

My heart broke today....I got a text message from Dave today that momma was killed monday. She was hit by a car....from what Glen told me she wanted to go say hi to a puppy across the street. She was at the hospital for 10 minutes when she died...but they tried to bring her back for another 40 minutes...she was a sweet dog and will be greatly missed. My heart breaks not only because she is gone...but also for Dave...this was like one of his children. I did take him to get a new puppy today...her name is Blue and she is beautiful...but she will not replace momma.

R.I.P.

Momma 1/30/05 - 6/11/07

You will be greatly missed
Jaedyn

Update

Well lets see...changes over the next few months....

Ramiz and I WERE going to move to Philly around the end of August...looks like it will be Vegas instead...still the same time frame. Want to hang with us...will need to do it in the next 3 months...then we will be west coast instead.

I'm out of a job...but I don't know when... Discovery Channel has decided to close their retail end...and that means over a 1000 people are going to be let go anytime between now and sept.1. I should know more info this week...ideally we will stay open till the end of July. That would work perfect for me since I had planned on leaving the store around August 10. But at this point I told them I would stick it out....so if were open till August 31..then I will be there till then.

My favorite Tattoo artist is moving to Houston, TX. But will be going between his shop here and the new one he is going to open. He is still working on my 1/4 sleeve. I had more work done today...and i have another appt. june 3. It will be done before we move. and there is some talk of him coming to vegas...plus i can get work done in Houston...so I'm glad he will be out on that way. I also spoke with Kat Von D about getting some work done (i'm going to have her do Jaedyn's portrait)...so that will happen sometime after August in her new shop in LA. When it comes down to it I will only allow about 3 artists to work on me at this point. KAt, Garver and ofcourse my favorite. But hey...I'll be 4 hours to LA so I can have both Kat and Garver do some work. I might have Garver do my arm....but I'm not sure....but Kat is going to be the one to do the portrait.

Well I'm going to bed.....
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Jaedyn

To the fucking bitch....

that felt the need to read my journal...and then share that info with all of his friends...I say fuck you and I hope that your proud of yourself. I will not play games with you...I will only say this......you have made a situation that was already hard...even worse...if you cared at all about Ramiz you would not have shared this with his friends...you would have let him tell them when HE was ready....but then again your 19 what the fuck do you know. I had that post public so ramiz could see it if he read my journal and know that I was truly sorry for what had happened...it was during a moment of weakness that I thought that I could put a trying part of my life into MY journal...but I guess you still feel the need to check up on us...well from this moment forward there is no need for you to check....because everything will be friends only.....
Jaedyn

Was it the right decision???....

I have seperated from Ramiz. I told him last night, and am in the process of moving out. Right now I'm staying at Tia's until I can get into the new apt. This was the hardest decision I have ever made....I'm just trying to do what is right for both of us. I want him to be happy...and I need to see if I can still make him happy. I hope he understands that while his heart is breaking....mine is too. It wasn't easy for me to do this...I just need us to figure out what is the best for us. When I saw his post for free cycle and trying to start over it kills me....I would leave him everything just so he doesnt hurt....I hate myself right now for what I have done....I don't know what the right decision is...I just couldn't do it anymore....he knew I wasn't happy...and in turn it wasnt helping him....I love him.....
Jaedyn

Why update???

Not really much to say...got new ink. Another on my ankle. Up to 3, and no where near stopping. I have this habit of stressing myself out. I go online and look at jobs in Philly, and then I think...what if I can't find a job? What if this degree will be as worthless as the others, of course I'm the one that makes them worthless. I just want to move. I so dislike Syracuse, and I miss NYC so much. That city felt like home, and I keep thinking that Philly is just 75 mins away. I could go whenever I want. I don't like that I'm approaching 30 and still have no real career, and that I have given up so many dreams in my early 20's for various men. I have been going through my stuff and tossing much of it. I have been hanging on to stuff for many, many years for no real reason. When I got kicked out of dads everything ended up in boxes and 10+ years later it still is. I want to use the next year (Ramiz should graduate Aug 2007) to save up the money to move and downsize my life. I know a place in Philly will be expensive and I have to think, do I want to live in philly or hang on to random stuff that I have not used in years. I've been doing pretty well with the task. I have also been dropping much of my vhs to DVD so I can get ride of it. It takes up way to much room and I want a smaller entertainment center in philly so the vhs has to go. Well I think i might sleep...and try to stop freaking out about the future.
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Jaedyn

My hair

I cut off over a foot of my hair Tuesday afternoon. I donated it to locks of love....but it is so freaking short in my mind. But Tia says its sexy and Ramiz likes it....and I know it will grow back....but I feel like part of my identity is gone and i had to call my mom on my way to contact because i was so upset. Well, back to homework.
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Jaedyn

Annoyed....

I don't have time to go into a huge rant....but does anyone take into consideration that perhaps its not that stores are denying X-mas...but rather that there is more than one holiday in the month of December. Perhaps people have forgotten that there is x-mas, hanukkah, and kwanzaa. I don't know what holiday you might be celebrating. So instead of insulting you by ASSUMING that you are shopping for x-mas....I wish you happy holidays instead of merry christmas.....I don't see Jew's up in arms about this....just the christians. Its shit like this that makes me happy that I'm not Christian. You're not the only religion in the world...actually at the rate religions are growing...you're losing your place. I'm so sick of religious shit. Christmas shopping has nothing to do with the Christian holiday....its just another reason to spend money. If the thought of people not wishing you a merry christmas when you shop at their store....stay home, read the bible, and consider what "you" believe x-mas is all about.




Back to my 30 page paper on writing on my new laptop.




Also having friends that are tattoo artist and piercers is a bad thing....i stretched my ears the other day...and i have another tattoo appointment next tuesday.
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